Chinese New Year 2010

I don't know what should i write here since my mind is not in order. It is said that if your mind is not in order, you also cannot manage to write a good article as well. Therefore, first of all, i need to know what i need to write... i want to write about my feeling since the morning of this chinese new year and here it goes...

This morning, i got up with not a good mood again, i was waiting for my girlfriend to sms me first and to ask me to go out for lunch, but she just sms me and she had lunch without telling me... i was so angry with her and though she kept the food for me, i refuse to eat and till now i'm still angry with her...

I know that she's not feeling well as well, she must be very angry with me now cuz she has to throw her food away and i'm tough with her now as well.

To be honest, i'm also tired of aguring with her to find what is right and what is wrong, she should know what type of person i am. And she's also tired of me who doesn't understand her well as well.

The solution is to break up , right? Am i chosing the right way? I don't know, I hope she won't come up with that thought, and if she does, i don't know what to do, i only have to prepare myself to face such a tragedy in my life...

My love comes to the critical point

It seems that my love have come to an end very soon. My girlfriend warned me the last time to break up with me if she can't tolerate with me for the last time even though that she knows what type of person i am.

I have two choices to make now. To prevent it or to let it be...
Now, my mind tell me to break up because i am angry with her because she is not helping me to get the hell out of this situation, but she push me down into the ground.

The other side of me is telling me prevent it not to happen because the result of the breaking up is very bad... i can't even imagine of how each side will be hurt.

Now, i really want to tell her that let's break up... i'm also tired of myself that make you feel like this. Honestly, i am really not ready for love...

You once told me that sometimes we don't need to wait till we are that good to do something that we want, that's why i keep my hope that i will be a good person though i'm not now...

Actually, i don't know whether we are meant to be together or what... she doesn't understand me and i don't understand her... we don't understand each other, how are we supposed to be together?

I must be ready for that... it's gonna be ok soon.... Let's live up... if i'm really sad... i'm going to plan to spend only 1 week for that....