Saturday, November 21, 2009

Why i am so lazy?

Damn it!!!
i'm going to have exam on this tuesday and monday soon and what i do now is playing game, surfing internet, hanging out, sleeping.... i don't even focus on the test that i'm going to have soon as well.

I need to finish 3 chapters for tonight, but i haven't even finish half yet, and tonight i plan to go to lake as well....

what the hell is in my mind now??? why i'm not focusing....F1......

Need to focus, somebody help....
what should i do??


should i think of my future? what if i keep procrastinating and i can't finish what i'm supposed to finish? Then this mark will affect my CGPA and then when i go to apply for the job, they would see that oh, you got only D for your computational method, man! i'm not going to hide you, so i'll be mess up cuz of only one this computational method??? NO, no i can't do that..

ok, now find the strategy to study it...
To study it, first i need to know how big i'm going to study?
2. i need to understand the procedure first before i practise
3. when i practise, i need to focus 100 percent, so i think i'd better put my phone far away from me for a while, let's say i need 3 hours to focus,
4. i have to refresh myself with drinking water, with taking bath and with nice clothes and with nice smeell
5. i need to turn off my pc for a while, and keep on study...
6. i will have to sit straight until 11, then i can take my phone and call my girlfriend.

go go

Monday, November 16, 2009

What is habit?

In this book, 7 habit of highly effective teen, written by Sean Covey, he said a lot of thing about habit. But there is one point that i don't agree with. He said that habit is easily managed.

As for me, i don't believe that it's easily managed. It needs a lot of time and high commitment to manage our habit. For example, we have a bad habit, never manage your file after you study. In this case, if you want to manage this habit, you need to show how much you really want to change, and then start having plan to change it. For sure, there will be time that you would fail because as i have mentioned habit is not easily managed, so what you need to do is to keep up not to give up. Keep spending time on changing your habit till you success in changing it, then only it can be changed.

In conclusion, in our life, we always have some bad habit that we need to change and that we think we cannot change. It is not a matter of can change or cannot. It's a matter of your attitude towards your life whether you want to change it or not. If you really want to change it, you need to show high commitment and then if possible have somebody who really cares about you to see your progression to make sure that you never give up on trying to change your habit.

To change is to try, to try is to keep up, to keep up is not to give up....So never give up on anything that you believe that it's value your life.

Show your commitment today and keep on changing any habit you think you need to change now

Sunday, November 15, 2009

What the hell am i doing nowadays?

Blank blank blank!!! It's what in my head every hours and minutes and every seconds. I don't really know what i'm doing or what i'm doing everything for? I don't have any principle or any conciousness in myself.... most of the time i'm blank. I also don't know how to write or to speak a good sentence in english. What i really know nowadays?

I"m blank!!! I never care about anything cuz i'm having everything now. i only start caring about those things once i start losing them, i think. Hopefully, i can value what i have and try to preserve those things.

Maybe it's cuz i'm always happy and never care about anything, once i care, i start to get worried. I think it's what life mean to be... why do i have to care about a lot of things?

I think it's not time for me to think now, but i will have to think about it later when i'm facing problem... what i should do is to get ready with everything that i'll face in the future.

In the future, i will have to earn money to support my own family. I can see the light of my family already. I think i'd better try to improve that cuz that i really meant the most to me.

Meanwhile, i seem to forget about my family. I forget that i have a very warm family already. I never miss my mum or my dad, or my siblings. I think they are missing me so much, but i never know about that...maybe i lose my feeling already

I think i need to do something to get my feeling back, i can't just let this happen. I need to do something that can make my heart beat harder or become realise of what i'm doing.