Imagine you are going to die next month on 16th july, what would you do?
First of all, what do i believe after i die? I've got to have some religion to depend on so that i know where i'm going after that.
First of all, i can't reject that there is no ghost, so i have to believe that there is some kind of special force that nobody can exactly explain beside religion. If i don't believe in any religions, please tell me what are you going to do after you die? you just disappear? And your soul? where would it go? By the next month, if i don't believe in any religion, i would just flying around going with some kinds of bad evil who are waiting to drag me down or bring me up, but if i believe in Jesus's Christ, he would help me to bring me up.
Accept the truth is the first stage.
Accept that you still love her, and you are in the progress of moving on.
Accept that you are a piece of shit now, and you need to improve more.
Accept that you have everything that can make me a piece of diamond.
Do i need advice from friends... vuthy
How can i move on fast?
take out the word fast from my mind. make it slower? why? cuz my love on her is still there
Pain + Difficult
We can't do our best to make the sun rise from the west.
With those facts, you can become stronger and greatful for that even it ends too short.
it's like learning from your mistake.
because it's the fact that he can't forget her.
it doesn't mean that she's back you take her, by then you move forward, and you have choices.
Strong= ability to have a choice
in life, if you follow you are weak, if you are weak, no one will come to you.
girls need a shoulder to lean on. you lead her rather than follow her. that's when she feels safe and happy.
Working from yourself first, inside out.
Starting from inside out is very painful, it's required courage, willing to change, motivation, and great discipline=ability to get up even if you can't, ability to go a bit further even if you can't.
Am i ready to bear the painful thing?
who i am and what i really want in life?
starting from learning about the past? what mistake i made in the past? Please learn it clearly , scrutiny it, else you will repeat those again.
love: learning why there is love inside me? what kind of girl you really want to be with? what kind of the you used to love in the past? and why her? not others?
it's the truth about yourself. i can carry only 100kg of rice, then move on to failure? why you fail those time, why you made those mistake? why the thing you wish to have have gone away from you?
then accept your success, i used to love by a girl, i got scholarship,i succed with that love only once, i can do this and that.
Only you have done all these that you can move on and flying to a comfortable room. and this time cuz of your experience you can fly very far away, further than you wish you could fly and then you are strong. this strong man will face a problem in a bodly way. i will not face painful problem anymore cuz the i used to face them already, have the courage to die for what he loves, that's the strong man we eventually be.
Make love as a happy feeling you used to have not let it occupy you. if it's pain, let's it be the lesson you learn and let it be a chance for you to be a real human, for this fact, i will not miss to do anything in real life because at least you have done something
DO IT SERIOUSLY!!! YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THAT TOMORROW CAN BE TOO LATE.
WE CAN'T CONTROL THE FAST OR THE FUTURE BUT WE CAN CONTROL THE PRESENT.
START CHANGING THE PRESENT IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHO YOU ARE NOW.
GIVE MYSELF A CHANCE TO CHANGE IF NO ONE GIVE YOU, PLEASE GIVE YOURSELF.
Take Your Time.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Friday, June 17, 2011
Feel sad again?
Getting up,getting up late, getting scold indirectly from my dad, being absent from work and breakfast, leading me to find something else to do that require some friends to talk with. That's just a part of me which sometimes happen cuz of feeling guilty come into position. I have to find the positive things from those.
1. Getting scold: it is a sign for me that i should learn to save money for my family.
2. Getting up late: i can have full energy after getting up, i have a great feeling of having enough sleep.
3. Being absent from work: today is holiday, man! Should give yourself some real space.
4. Breakfast? It's still 8.33. After this i can go to take bath, and go to have breakfast near sisovath and go to visit your old friend, vanna!
After all, it's a holiday. And i should have fun with it! The point now is that i don't want to go out alone. It's good to go out alone, btw! you can think more of who you really are, you can go to see the girls that you want to see, you can play the game that you want to play, you can talk to the person that you want to talk with, you can do anything that you want to do.
There is a part of me which say that i should find somebody to talk with! Beautiful girls? or just friends who are female? i haven't talked with girls for so long, that's why i become like this. i think i just find some girls to talk with, show them my humorous!
Don't mention about breakfast! if you are not hungry, then just find something else to do.
1. Getting scold: it is a sign for me that i should learn to save money for my family.
2. Getting up late: i can have full energy after getting up, i have a great feeling of having enough sleep.
3. Being absent from work: today is holiday, man! Should give yourself some real space.
4. Breakfast? It's still 8.33. After this i can go to take bath, and go to have breakfast near sisovath and go to visit your old friend, vanna!
After all, it's a holiday. And i should have fun with it! The point now is that i don't want to go out alone. It's good to go out alone, btw! you can think more of who you really are, you can go to see the girls that you want to see, you can play the game that you want to play, you can talk to the person that you want to talk with, you can do anything that you want to do.
There is a part of me which say that i should find somebody to talk with! Beautiful girls? or just friends who are female? i haven't talked with girls for so long, that's why i become like this. i think i just find some girls to talk with, show them my humorous!
Don't mention about breakfast! if you are not hungry, then just find something else to do.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Facebook thinking
I've been not in relationship for a while since April 20th, i guess. The reason why i am not in the relationship anymore is that i asked my girlfriend to broke up with me since i was too worried about my stupid life. However, having girlfriend or not, my life is still the same. I don't think i really need her in my life. And i don't think that i really lover her since the first place since i'm a kind of person who doesn't really care much about what's going on around me. In another word, i'm selfish. I'm really selfish. All the thing, i do today is for my entertainment. i don't really care about other people. I don't care how much others worried about me. I just do what i can and go on with my life. Hopefully, i won't end up living in the hell alone.
Talking about living alone, i'm thinking whether i'm a type of person who want to be alone or a type of person who really needs company. I think i can handle everything alone. Sometimes, going out alone is better than going with my friends. When i go out with my friends, i just don't really do what i want to do, i just do what my friends want to do;eat what they want to eat. That's just not me.
When i go out alone, i like to do what i really want to do like playing game, going watching others skating, seeing beautiful girls. I don't care much about everything around me. As long as, i feel happy, i'm fine. The only problem is that i can't earn my living now. If only i have a degree, a job and a good paid salary, i'm going to enjoy my life so much because i'm going to have a lot of fun with my family like eating out with them, bring them to where they want to go; then the rest of the time, i can spend with my friends without feeling guilty. I believe that as long as i have enough money, i can go out with them because the problem is not with friends; the problems is with money. If i have a lot of money and i'm alone, i'm going to spend my money on karaoke girls, bring them out to eat something with me, have fun with me. i'll do this only if i'm too desperate, but i believe that when i have a lot of money on my own, i will find the right girl to get married with.
Talking about the right girl, i'm just a bit afraid about that. It's really hard for me to find the right girl. Maybe, i will just go to the fortune teller and ask her when is the right time for me to get married and after i know that i should keep myself clean and wait till that day to come. Is it good? yes, because sometimes, the more you want something, the less you will get it. Sometimes, especially love, it just comes when the right time come. The more you want it, the less you get it. How about i tell myself to forget about it and do what is really important to my life right now? What is it that important to my life right now? knowledge? yes, that's right. i think i should tell myself to forget about everything and go on with something which is really stuff.
The real stuff!
The real stuff is something which is really matter to me right now. What is the thing that i really need to do right now? What is the real thing that i need to tell myself to focus on right now? is it girl? is it clubbing? is it masturbation?
The real stuff that i really need to consider right now is the challenge that i'm facing right now like everything that i think is a challenge. I need to pay all attention to what i want from now on. There are many thing that i want, i really want.
I want a beautiful car
i want a beautiful house
i want a beautiful wife who can take care of all my heart problem
i want a rich life style going on holiday every year espeically abroad with the one i love.
i want to be a professional guitarist
i want to be in a great shape
I want to spend my money on the fashion thing like new phone, new clothing style, new watch, new hair style, smooth face.
I want to be cool
i want to be a superstar.
i want to be independent
Talking about living alone, i'm thinking whether i'm a type of person who want to be alone or a type of person who really needs company. I think i can handle everything alone. Sometimes, going out alone is better than going with my friends. When i go out with my friends, i just don't really do what i want to do, i just do what my friends want to do;eat what they want to eat. That's just not me.
When i go out alone, i like to do what i really want to do like playing game, going watching others skating, seeing beautiful girls. I don't care much about everything around me. As long as, i feel happy, i'm fine. The only problem is that i can't earn my living now. If only i have a degree, a job and a good paid salary, i'm going to enjoy my life so much because i'm going to have a lot of fun with my family like eating out with them, bring them to where they want to go; then the rest of the time, i can spend with my friends without feeling guilty. I believe that as long as i have enough money, i can go out with them because the problem is not with friends; the problems is with money. If i have a lot of money and i'm alone, i'm going to spend my money on karaoke girls, bring them out to eat something with me, have fun with me. i'll do this only if i'm too desperate, but i believe that when i have a lot of money on my own, i will find the right girl to get married with.
Talking about the right girl, i'm just a bit afraid about that. It's really hard for me to find the right girl. Maybe, i will just go to the fortune teller and ask her when is the right time for me to get married and after i know that i should keep myself clean and wait till that day to come. Is it good? yes, because sometimes, the more you want something, the less you will get it. Sometimes, especially love, it just comes when the right time come. The more you want it, the less you get it. How about i tell myself to forget about it and do what is really important to my life right now? What is it that important to my life right now? knowledge? yes, that's right. i think i should tell myself to forget about everything and go on with something which is really stuff.
The real stuff!
The real stuff is something which is really matter to me right now. What is the thing that i really need to do right now? What is the real thing that i need to tell myself to focus on right now? is it girl? is it clubbing? is it masturbation?
The real stuff that i really need to consider right now is the challenge that i'm facing right now like everything that i think is a challenge. I need to pay all attention to what i want from now on. There are many thing that i want, i really want.
I want a beautiful car
i want a beautiful house
i want a beautiful wife who can take care of all my heart problem
i want a rich life style going on holiday every year espeically abroad with the one i love.
i want to be a professional guitarist
i want to be in a great shape
I want to spend my money on the fashion thing like new phone, new clothing style, new watch, new hair style, smooth face.
I want to be cool
i want to be a superstar.
i want to be independent
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