After talking with my sweetheart last night, about my attitude towards her now, i start to realise that i have done a lot of things bad now. Back in the past, i was a sweet person, and i care about her even a little thing, i almsot forget that i am that kind of person already, thx darling for remind me who i am :).
Anyway, Have i changed anything so far since i know sopha?
Nowadays, i'm have a good habit of keeping my place cleaned and have the goal in my life, i know why i study for, and i try to apply what i study to the real world.
I think i'm reaching the place where i want soon, the place where studying is not a problem for me, the place where full of love and the place where my life is not messy up anymore!!
I'm happy that i have my sweetheart to remind me!!!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
I hate it when i feel like this
i don't know whether i should say that i am feeling stressful or what..i just don't do anything useful to myself, and it's what i hate the most.
I hate the feeling of dont' know what i should do....
i hate it................
I hate the feeling of dont' know what i should do....
i hate it................
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
After reading and typing how to work and study effectively
After i read that article, i start to have an idea in my mind, i think i should make a plan for my study time. i need to make it firm :).
I need to set it like i'm working in my country. The work time in my country is from 7 to 11, which means 4 hours in the morning, and 1-5, 4 hours in the evening, and then i go to sleep and if i can't complete my work for today, i need to add time to do them at night time, if i can complete my task in the morning, i can do anything i want at night time.
1. My task for complete lab reports in the morning
2. My assignment for TOS in the evening.
I don't care the way you do it , you just finish them, our boss need them, i spend you a lot of money on that, so you have to complete them for me.
Tonight, i want you to prepare the stuff for tmr before you go to sleep, you understand that?
Start preparing them now.
I need to set it like i'm working in my country. The work time in my country is from 7 to 11, which means 4 hours in the morning, and 1-5, 4 hours in the evening, and then i go to sleep and if i can't complete my work for today, i need to add time to do them at night time, if i can complete my task in the morning, i can do anything i want at night time.
1. My task for complete lab reports in the morning
2. My assignment for TOS in the evening.
I don't care the way you do it , you just finish them, our boss need them, i spend you a lot of money on that, so you have to complete them for me.
Tonight, i want you to prepare the stuff for tmr before you go to sleep, you understand that?
Start preparing them now.
What a wonderful Day!
Today, i had spent my holiday with the one i love. We had a lot of fun, but we were a bit disappointed cuz something didn't appear as what we expected it to be.
This morning, we left our place at 11 am and reach the place we want to reach at 2, then we had lunch together, then went on for window shopping. the last thing we did was buying some stuff back to home.
Before, we reached our room, we went to the lake and sit and talked about our family... then, we come back too our own room and do something that we think are important to our life such as studying, ironing.... and so on.
This morning, we left our place at 11 am and reach the place we want to reach at 2, then we had lunch together, then went on for window shopping. the last thing we did was buying some stuff back to home.
Before, we reached our room, we went to the lake and sit and talked about our family... then, we come back too our own room and do something that we think are important to our life such as studying, ironing.... and so on.
Feel so exhausted after speaking too much
I plan not to speak too much when i go to have dinner, but finally, i speak a lot and now i feel so exhausted, i think i need time to recover it back, ...
ok, let's do something to better before i start what i have to do. let's start by writing the way to work and study effectively.
Topic: How to work and study effectively:
By: Hani Sbrina Zulkapli
1.) make your business interesting.
Use more color around yourself in life to enrich boost up performance. Recent studies reveal that the human brain is more active in a colorfully attractive environment than being in a bland one.
2.) Set your working hour for the day.
All your friends and colleagues should be informed of your working hours. This is to ensure that they will not disturb you unnecessarily while you work.
3.) Prioritize your activities for each day.
One way it to write down a list of things you need to do at the beginning of each day.
4.)Interruptions cannot be avoided, but need to be kept to a minimum.
You need to be focused and try not to let interruptions take too much time of your work.
5.)Assess your own performance on your work.
If there is room for improvements, you need to develop strategies to improve your work.
6.)Set aside specific times
For doing tasks such as checking mail, checking on the internet and handling paperwork.
7.) Schedule time off from your work.
On a regular basis. You need to work on staying fit and healthy by taking time off to recharge your batteries.
8.)Do not procrastinate.
Procrastination eventually leads to overburden of unsolved works.
ok, let's do something to better before i start what i have to do. let's start by writing the way to work and study effectively.
Topic: How to work and study effectively:
By: Hani Sbrina Zulkapli
1.) make your business interesting.
Use more color around yourself in life to enrich boost up performance. Recent studies reveal that the human brain is more active in a colorfully attractive environment than being in a bland one.
2.) Set your working hour for the day.
All your friends and colleagues should be informed of your working hours. This is to ensure that they will not disturb you unnecessarily while you work.
3.) Prioritize your activities for each day.
One way it to write down a list of things you need to do at the beginning of each day.
4.)Interruptions cannot be avoided, but need to be kept to a minimum.
You need to be focused and try not to let interruptions take too much time of your work.
5.)Assess your own performance on your work.
If there is room for improvements, you need to develop strategies to improve your work.
6.)Set aside specific times
For doing tasks such as checking mail, checking on the internet and handling paperwork.
7.) Schedule time off from your work.
On a regular basis. You need to work on staying fit and healthy by taking time off to recharge your batteries.
8.)Do not procrastinate.
Procrastination eventually leads to overburden of unsolved works.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Feel good about everything!
Finally, i feel good about everything cuz i start studying again :).
It's the most important thing i want in my life after all.
Today, i studied and played sport with my beloved one :).
So happy!!!
It's the most important thing i want in my life after all.
Today, i studied and played sport with my beloved one :).
So happy!!!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Miss You
Today, we had a party at v5 canteen. How do i feel about it? So so!!
Today, i've been feeling good cuz i've done all the thing that i'm supposed to do such as doing report, reviewing hydraulic lesson, and do mathlab assignment.
However, i feel a bit sad now cuz i'm missing someone, i want to talk to her, but i dare not. I just wait for the they that she comes to talk about that problem over.
I will stand on my point. i'll let her decide cuz one i think i don't deserve her, 2. i don't want to see her sad, so whatever she decide i will agree.
And the rest of the time, i will just try to control myself when i miss her.
..........................
From now on, i won't love any more girls until i can stand on my own, i don't want other people to look down on me, and the one who i love at all.
Today, i've been feeling good cuz i've done all the thing that i'm supposed to do such as doing report, reviewing hydraulic lesson, and do mathlab assignment.
However, i feel a bit sad now cuz i'm missing someone, i want to talk to her, but i dare not. I just wait for the they that she comes to talk about that problem over.
I will stand on my point. i'll let her decide cuz one i think i don't deserve her, 2. i don't want to see her sad, so whatever she decide i will agree.
And the rest of the time, i will just try to control myself when i miss her.
..........................
From now on, i won't love any more girls until i can stand on my own, i don't want other people to look down on me, and the one who i love at all.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Knowledge, Love or Nothing?
There are two things i was holding last week, and now one of them leave me already, that is "Love". Day by day, even friends and my family will leave me alone if i still act the way i act these days. The most important thing that i'm the afraid that will leave me is "Knowledge". I can lost everything, but i can't lost that one cuz if i lose this one i will end up no where. My life would suck without it.
My family, my community are looking at me and waiting for me to be successful, and the chance to be successful is fading away from me day by day...day by day , i will finish my life here and turn back to PP and i will be more suffering if i'm not ready in this stage. I can't take everything easy anymore,
Finally, if i don't change myself, i will end up with nothing and when nothing is in my life, what the point for living?
My family, my community are looking at me and waiting for me to be successful, and the chance to be successful is fading away from me day by day...day by day , i will finish my life here and turn back to PP and i will be more suffering if i'm not ready in this stage. I can't take everything easy anymore,
Finally, if i don't change myself, i will end up with nothing and when nothing is in my life, what the point for living?
Sad
People is always facing obstacles in their life. Without them, life is nothing. However, when people are in the bad situation, it's hard for him to stand up, only that he has a strong motivation for his life.
"This too will pass" is the proveb that i like the most. Everything bad will pass and somethng good will come in after we can bear the situation, so i believe that as long as i stay strong and try to bear with what i'm facing now, good things will happen in the future!!
"This too will pass" is the proveb that i like the most. Everything bad will pass and somethng good will come in after we can bear the situation, so i believe that as long as i stay strong and try to bear with what i'm facing now, good things will happen in the future!!
My role model
These days, i find out that my role model is bong Kol. He's has a good habit in his life. When he comes back from work, he go jogging and when he comes back home he take bath and take dinner , then he spend sometimes to read newspaper or watch the news then he will start studying for 3 hours, before he sleeps, he irons his clothes and he goes to bed....He doesn't speak much. He'd rather smile than speak. i should follow what he does.
Monday, September 14, 2009
If we don't do something useful for ourself, at least do something we like to do!!!!
I've been stupid a long time ago, and i just realize now that i have wasted a lot of time drowning in what i don't like to do such as being quiet, not listening to music and try to find what i like to do...
I now decide that even though i don't do something useful for myself, i will at least do something that i like such as preparing my room and go bothering people, listening to music and so on!!!!
Now, i'm listening to music and enjoy it so much.... i don't want to waste my time in doing something that i don't like to do at all. I believe that there is always some activities that make us happy even though we are in the prisons. For example, if we are in prison, we can do exercise or carving, or learning something....as long as it keeps our brain occupied!!!!
I won't stay in the prison of finding nothing to do anymore.!!!! when i walk i can listen to music or i can play game in my phone.... a lot of things to enjoy in this world!!!!!
I now decide that even though i don't do something useful for myself, i will at least do something that i like such as preparing my room and go bothering people, listening to music and so on!!!!
Now, i'm listening to music and enjoy it so much.... i don't want to waste my time in doing something that i don't like to do at all. I believe that there is always some activities that make us happy even though we are in the prisons. For example, if we are in prison, we can do exercise or carving, or learning something....as long as it keeps our brain occupied!!!!
I won't stay in the prison of finding nothing to do anymore.!!!! when i walk i can listen to music or i can play game in my phone.... a lot of things to enjoy in this world!!!!!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
My World
Wondering why i act the way i act everyday, keeping asking myself how to improve my life better, Keep questioning when will i get out from this stupid world i am living in, i am really worrying about my feeling that keep bothering me everyday. In the morning, when i got up, i felt that i can doing anything i want to do, after the lunch time, i felt that i was so lazy and i need to take a rest. Is the so called mood is playing around with me? Why you have to pop up differently every times, every days? I'm so sick of you, i want to live in a world where there is no YOU!!
Finally, i find out that there is no way that i will be improved, and the only thing that i have to do is to let everything be like this...whether i fail the exam or i fail my mark, i'm not going to care about it anymore because one thing i know for sure is that i won't do anything until the last minute, and i have to accept it and i am not going to change it anymore, who care when i work i will have to do like too, i will only do the work when the time come, i will learn to measure the time by myself.
In conclusion, when i get up, first of all, i have to identify my mood. I need to ask myself, what i want to do today? if i don't want to study, i will take the book English and do something else such as checking dictionary and so on, but i won't let myself doing nothing anymore!!!
Doing nothing and wandering around other people room is not a solution anymore, i need to go to my room and take control of my life, that's what i have to do ...
Good night!!!
Finally, i find out that there is no way that i will be improved, and the only thing that i have to do is to let everything be like this...whether i fail the exam or i fail my mark, i'm not going to care about it anymore because one thing i know for sure is that i won't do anything until the last minute, and i have to accept it and i am not going to change it anymore, who care when i work i will have to do like too, i will only do the work when the time come, i will learn to measure the time by myself.
In conclusion, when i get up, first of all, i have to identify my mood. I need to ask myself, what i want to do today? if i don't want to study, i will take the book English and do something else such as checking dictionary and so on, but i won't let myself doing nothing anymore!!!
Doing nothing and wandering around other people room is not a solution anymore, i need to go to my room and take control of my life, that's what i have to do ...
Good night!!!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Take life easy ;)
Sonner or later, I will die one day, so why i have to care too much about these bullshit life? i must take it easy from now on.... stop thinking about how to make my life better or how to be a good student or anything.....
ha.ha
Take life easy,dude!!!
ha.ha
Take life easy,dude!!!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Edit on how to get skill in my engineering
Just try to get A for all subjects. Prepare for tests and assignment and lab report and quiz
What is my aim?
Finally, when i graduate, here are things that i have to make sure that i have for myself so that i can go out in the new environment.
1. engineering skill
2. communication skill
3. english skill
So, how do can you make sure that you can obtain these 3 skills?
i need to improve 2 skills first before i go to third skill.
1. English
2. Engineering skill.
To improve english:
spend 30mns everyday
read one articles from news or movie
write them down into books
practice by making sentences related to those words in the blog
To improve skill:
when go to class, write important thing down
when come back, do all the homework and assignment
Check all the difficult words
Commuincation Skill:
Know's people's name
talk about their favourite thing
Be friendly to everyone.
Don't let other people know what you are doing. Do something that make them surprise , never say something out. Just do it.
1. engineering skill
2. communication skill
3. english skill
So, how do can you make sure that you can obtain these 3 skills?
i need to improve 2 skills first before i go to third skill.
1. English
2. Engineering skill.
To improve english:
spend 30mns everyday
read one articles from news or movie
write them down into books
practice by making sentences related to those words in the blog
To improve skill:
when go to class, write important thing down
when come back, do all the homework and assignment
Check all the difficult words
Commuincation Skill:
Know's people's name
talk about their favourite thing
Be friendly to everyone.
Don't let other people know what you are doing. Do something that make them surprise , never say something out. Just do it.
Know yourself better
I think before i move on towards in my life, i need to pause for a while to think of what i am having now, and what i am lacking of now!!! And i'd better tried to improve it everyday. The following sentences are statement that states what i am having now and what i dont' have now
1. I have the ability to make others happy.
2. I don't have enough ability to contact with other people properly because my English barrair.
3. I can't do any work cuz i don't know the reason why i should do that.
To know myself better, i need to ask this questions.
1. Why am i studying abroad?
2. why do i love her?
3. What have you done for yourself and the one that care about you?
The only reason why i come to study here is because i need a better education. Here i have time to study and improve myself better than i cambodia, i don't have to think of the way to live, i have my own room, i have my own money, i am independent, i can do what i ever i want , but one thing that i need to confirm is that i come here to study.
The reason why i love her is that because she is beautiful. She always cares about me, and we have known each other for a long time already, and love is a taste of life, that's why i decide to love her. I don't care about other reasons such as her parents, her family, her wealth, i don't care about that as long as i have somebody to take good care of me when i am down and we love each other, that's the point why i should love her.
The last questin is what have i done for myself and for the one who cares about me?
I have done a few tasks only for myself and for people who care about me.
1. i keep up with the studying but only a few lessons,
2. I make my family happy by showing the way i make my decision
I don't have much point to prove that i have done a good task toward myself and my family, the only thing that i should prove them is to study. This is the only way!!!
I should plan my time well for myself from now on. What i want to improve and so on.
1. I have the ability to make others happy.
2. I don't have enough ability to contact with other people properly because my English barrair.
3. I can't do any work cuz i don't know the reason why i should do that.
To know myself better, i need to ask this questions.
1. Why am i studying abroad?
2. why do i love her?
3. What have you done for yourself and the one that care about you?
The only reason why i come to study here is because i need a better education. Here i have time to study and improve myself better than i cambodia, i don't have to think of the way to live, i have my own room, i have my own money, i am independent, i can do what i ever i want , but one thing that i need to confirm is that i come here to study.
The reason why i love her is that because she is beautiful. She always cares about me, and we have known each other for a long time already, and love is a taste of life, that's why i decide to love her. I don't care about other reasons such as her parents, her family, her wealth, i don't care about that as long as i have somebody to take good care of me when i am down and we love each other, that's the point why i should love her.
The last questin is what have i done for myself and for the one who cares about me?
I have done a few tasks only for myself and for people who care about me.
1. i keep up with the studying but only a few lessons,
2. I make my family happy by showing the way i make my decision
I don't have much point to prove that i have done a good task toward myself and my family, the only thing that i should prove them is to study. This is the only way!!!
I should plan my time well for myself from now on. What i want to improve and so on.
I'm sad and worry about my test
Sitting in front of my friend's laptop, i don't really know what to do beside finding strange to do. i feel so upset now because i don't do what i am supposed to do. I want to be alone for a while, but i don't know where i should go. Hmm... what on earth is happening to me now? i really hate this kind of situation. The situation that i am supposed to do something useful for my test, but i turn out to do something that are very useless such as sleeping, going to bank, and so on.
Am i quitting on trying to improve myself to be a better person? i have promised with a girl that i love that i will try to improve myself better, but i haven't done anything yet. I think i'd better fail it rather than i quit it.
I have to know that i am in the process of getting her. She is not mine yet, so i should know my position better, i should do something that is not i am supposed to do.
Finally, i just want to remind myself that, i should not quit on what i am doing.. i should try to do it even though i fail to do it.
Be strong, man!!! you are the owner of yourself, you are the one who control yourself, you must believe in yourself that you can do a lot better. Never give up on yourself. Always put in mine that you are trying to change yourself to be a better person.
Am i quitting on trying to improve myself to be a better person? i have promised with a girl that i love that i will try to improve myself better, but i haven't done anything yet. I think i'd better fail it rather than i quit it.
I have to know that i am in the process of getting her. She is not mine yet, so i should know my position better, i should do something that is not i am supposed to do.
Finally, i just want to remind myself that, i should not quit on what i am doing.. i should try to do it even though i fail to do it.
Be strong, man!!! you are the owner of yourself, you are the one who control yourself, you must believe in yourself that you can do a lot better. Never give up on yourself. Always put in mine that you are trying to change yourself to be a better person.
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