I think the testing is " Over "

I think i have been testing whether there was God or not only or one week. During that period, i was stressful and very sad about the relationship with my girlfriend. After that one week end, i have left God out of my soul, i never talk to him, i never pray or read the bible.

During that period, i was talking to God most of the time, i ask him what i should do or what i should be in the bad situation and so on. The question to me now is that whether i was really talking to God or talking to myself? I feel like i was trying to make another image in myself to tell me what to do, not God. But since God is the unlimited source of energy that's why i usually refer it to the word God.

I don't know whether i should do believe in God anymore or not... i'm at the cross road now.

There was one miracle which happen to me during one time while i was on the taxi with my girlfriend and other. During that time, i was talking to God and then i saw a very big cloud-heart shape in the sky... i wanted to tell my girlfriend to see it too, but i don't see the point for doing that...

Now i still feel sad and i feel like i need God again... Am i too selfish to ask from help from other people when i have problem, but when i'm fine and when i'm ok, i just started leaving them away?