Feel Bad Cuz of Quiz

Just realise that i haven't done two quizs :(......

I really feel bad about that and i don't feel like to do anything at all. I just want to stay sad and do nothing, it's my nature, but will it improve anything? No, man!!!

I think i gotta be strong and find the way to get out of this hole.

I remember a story about 2 men who walked at the same path where there is hold on that dark road.
Those two guys fall in that whole when they walk through there because they can't see a whole along the road. Next time, when they come to that road again, one guy realise that there is a hole in that road and he walk around that road, and remember of how he fall last time; however, the other guy, when he come to the place where there is a hole , he just falls down in that whole again, and later on he just fall in the whole again everytime he comes to that road, while the other guys is finding a new life and never live in that whole again.

As for my conditioin, is like the guy who falls in the same hole as he alwasy walk to that road. He never remember his past experience, he never make an improvement, he's just lazy to observe everything around him and then he fall in to the same hole every time.

Every semester, i always fall into the same holes, repeat the same mistakes as always, i know that i need to change for sure, but just when? I don't know, or maybe i will never change? or maybe, i will live in the past experience? Or maybe i will be stressfull for the rest of my life? or Maybe i will be regreat for the rest of my life when i realise that i don't have the chance to improve myself anymore? should i wait until that time to kill me or should i kill myself by not trying to improve anything at all from now.

I have to make a decision. It's a life decision, if i chose to not to try to improve anything, i'm just be a bad person, i don't have to do anything,i don't have to go class, i don't have to be afraid of getting low mark, i just stay at my room, playing game, going for sport, going for shopping, stop caring about school at all anymore.

However, if i really care and really want to change to be a good person, i need to tell myself to wake up, to make an improvement, to do something that other people will never that i do it. Just to surprise them or yourself, i should do something special that people never know about that when they see it, they just stun.... What should i do? Focus on studying, i know that i don't focus much on studying yet.

A bit complicated here, just want to make sure that i will try to make a change...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!