Second Day of My New Timetable: Become Lazy Again

It seems to me that my unidentified feeling is starting to come back again. Why? is it because i don't listen to music or is it because i play around too much? hmmm

I think i know the answer to that. There are a few reasons why i behave the way i behave now. First of all, it's my bad habit. I always feel lazy as the time goes by, i just can't be hard-working as always, that's why i'm trying to change myself. The second reason is that i speak too much. Whenever, i start speaking too much, i won't be able to concentrate at all, so that's why i don't feel like doing my assignment cuz i can't concentrate. The last reason is that i don't want to stay in my room. I need to feel posses with something which are my properties so that i feel like i have something as my own, so that i will start to pay attention on something else.

Therefore, to find my real feeling, i need to get rid of being lazy by trying to find something useful to do such as helping other people, prepare my room and so on. Morever, i need to control myself by not speaking much, i'd rather thinking much more than i speak. Also, i need to feel my property, touching my bad, feeling my clothes so that i won't take those things as grainted. Now, i fel like i know who i am and what i should do now.... :)