Wondering why i act the way i act everyday, keeping asking myself how to improve my life better, Keep questioning when will i get out from this stupid world i am living in, i am really worrying about my feeling that keep bothering me everyday. In the morning, when i got up, i felt that i can doing anything i want to do, after the lunch time, i felt that i was so lazy and i need to take a rest. Is the so called mood is playing around with me? Why you have to pop up differently every times, every days? I'm so sick of you, i want to live in a world where there is no YOU!!
Finally, i find out that there is no way that i will be improved, and the only thing that i have to do is to let everything be like this...whether i fail the exam or i fail my mark, i'm not going to care about it anymore because one thing i know for sure is that i won't do anything until the last minute, and i have to accept it and i am not going to change it anymore, who care when i work i will have to do like too, i will only do the work when the time come, i will learn to measure the time by myself.
In conclusion, when i get up, first of all, i have to identify my mood. I need to ask myself, what i want to do today? if i don't want to study, i will take the book English and do something else such as checking dictionary and so on, but i won't let myself doing nothing anymore!!!
Doing nothing and wandering around other people room is not a solution anymore, i need to go to my room and take control of my life, that's what i have to do ...
Good night!!!
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