After 3 days of holidays i feel unstable now. I can't focus on anything. I dream a lot recently. it makes me lazy.
hmm... i don't know what to do now. I'm so blank and it's what i hate. I wonder why i become like this? i wonder why i'm not socialized anymore, why i want to be alone to do something depend on some specific friends? why don't i go out to the real world, and communicate with them?
I know what i am having now is very comfortable, i just don't want to get out of it. I just follow what others do, i don't have my own principle, that's why i can go out with anybody.
There are a lot of problems occuring with me. I don't know a lot of people's name, i never even try to remember their name. i'm so cold when i talk to other people. I don't speak much sometimes, i don't interact much. I lost my sense of humor....hmm..i can't express myself very well. it's because i'm afraid of the truth.
I'm so slow recently, i can't decide to do something very fast as before, when i want to do something, i have to think whether i need to inform one person or not.
I'm going to read something and go to sleep now.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
i don't see any changes in you... you are always like this a long time ago, but you just don't realize that... what i suggest you to do now is to stop thinking of something that distract your mind.
ReplyDeleteThe best way for you to do is to try a normal way of self control. Learn to do the meditation for sometimes is the best... I suggest you spend around 10mns or something to do the meditation when you are feeling like this...
remember, try to do the real meditation... not the one that you just close your eyes and you form some picture there...
i guess, you know how to do the right meditation already, right? you used to learn it, so just sit for a while and try to do it now....