My thought

My philosophy.

Now come to your philosophy. What do I think about my life? What can I do to improve my life? I do not mean to say it is non-serious tone. I am saying seriously. You have locked into most of the mysterious mind on this earth that some people can never understand what it is and you need to understand that what you are knowing is very powerful comparing to the people 100 years ago. But the questions is what is good about knowing everything, but can’t do anything about it? I am wrong. From the knowledge that I have, the moive that watched, the book that I read, I have expand my understanding. This will make me make a decision more wiser. I think about a lot of option based on my reference before I start decide to judge something. So this maybe the reason I have come here so far. Imagine that i have never touched the 7 habits book, i wouldn't apply win-win when i go to interview to Malaysia, i past the interview because i have applied the win-win strategy i learn from the book. After watching the God Father movie, i understand that we do not have to try hard for our life. We are all set in a pattern not understand by us. That is why what we need to have is only faith, believing that we are going to have a great life here. Understand that we are here with up and down. Without being down, we will never know how it is feel to be up. So all the feeling just support me to the better future. I may feel down once a while but i believe that is a good thing. I have understand God pattern now, whenever i feel down, i know that i will find something important in my life soon such as when i was feeling so down about my final year, i graduate. I am not trying to encourage myself. 

Books

I read books. Many books say everything happen for a reason, and it serve us. I didn't fully undestand what it is. but now i do. I didn't understand it first , but now i do. It is like the secret concept. To be honest, i do not fully form the idea on agree about it. Maybe because something i wish for is not really happening yet. However, i somehow find it true why because i have gone through most of it. and there are books, movie and other great philosophy talking about. Maybe it is true but it is not working on me yet. Maybe it will work at the end of my journey and i feel regret that i should have enjoyed with my life while waiting for the big gift to come. 

Pass and present

Go back to your life when you was a kid. How poor your family were. but it was a happy family. your family grow up like this because of your dad and your mum and your sibling and your friends. They all share a great deal in making this happen. You have a lot of mentors as well. 

I am living in a society, not a great society but i can say that it is a good one.I have tried to live my way, think on my way, study my way my whole life. and i never regret about it at all. I now realize that i have a strong defense mechanism. Even in my dream. I know that i never give up on anything. I just keep going until i reach it.  

Grateful

I watch this video clip about the parrot which are so excited about the water that his owner poor into the glass. This is something we all should be doing everything. You see the water in front of me? Why everyday, i drink it like i have to force myself drinking it all the time? or it is just a habit that i have to drink the water to balance my life? Why don't i feel happy with every drop of water? According to the law of familairity. We seem to take things for granted when we stay with them long enough. The question is how to fight that? It is the law; it is strong; it is like that. How to fight it? It is hard, we can't fight it, but we can try and see whether it is working or not. It has to do with imagination. You have to imagine that you go back to where you were. Going back to when you were in grade 4th. In the morning, you walk to your class feeling exciting about playing the game that you had imagine in your dream. Then in the morning, you go in the game house, and you played it all. You wish you are dead, now you are very hungry, sitting in the table looking at other kids enjoying their breakfast while you only looking at their mouse. You are very thirsty. You need to do something about it, but you fail to due to your level of understanding about life and everything around you. So after that imagination, what happen now? You get up and you realized that you have everything now. You have everything that a normal person need to have. you are living above average. You enjoy going to movie once a week, you enjoying eating out with wife, your friend and your family. You enjoy working near your house, you enjoy travelling with all of them. You haven't had kids, you haven't had to bring them to school, hoping that they will graduate well as you, hoping that they will find their spouse, save money for them and so on. These are the things that i will have to go through too, but not now. I have to go step by step. Enjoy every moment. 

Habit of reflection

There are many things in my head that is not getting the result but i just have faith that it will produce the good result one day. There is one thing i need to do to become my habit and what that is? That is reflection, i have to ask myself what does that mean to me? What does that thing happen mean to me? Do i need to learn anything from that? Or it is non of my business and i have to let it go? 

Life

Life is a mystery. Sometimes, you think you know something, you are sure that thing will go to your way, but it didn't. I use to wonder how it is like to be a rich man, a very rich man. When i was a kid, i always thought that i have a million dollar, and i will put all the money in the bank and wait to get the interest only. That way i don't have to put my hand in the money, i only have to take the interest and pay for my daily bill. Even where i am now, is to somebody dream. Imagine you cousin living in the country side. What do you thing they wish for? They are so poor, they have in total maybe 4000$ for everything. And you think what do they see? They see if they could be me, having a great family, travelling alot, going out abroad. One peron's property maybe it is other people dream. 

Dream

Dearm!!! Tell me what is the dream that you were having and now you are doing? Not drinkin beer and living in a peaceful house, it comes true now. Going to Hong Kong, yeah, i did go after i get married. Going to France, while i end up in Malaysia. Being at the beach, yeah i did a lot of time. Dream come true many times. Is it luck that happen to me? what is going on? why i have met a lot of good stuff around me? Why i have got a lot of good friends, family. Sometimes life is ironic. You were feeling sad, then suddenly something happy happen. You are happy suddenly something bad happen. It is all about uncertainty, you can't be certain about anything in your life. It is just impossible. You may think that you are having a great life right now, but things may change suddenly that you don't know. Before Pol Pot regime, who tell us that there will be a sudden change like that? for 3 years different people see different thing according to the area they living. So do not be too happy, and do not feel so sad about anything. What you need to do is to increase your awareness, increase your knowledge and so on. 

Revenge

I see this revenge on facebook about one country kill another country to take revenge. When is this going to stop? How are we going to stop this? Awareness is the key. We have to open other people awareness so that thing will be peace in the world. I cannot do anything. i can't change people idea. It is that people who have to change their ideas by themselves. 

Thought

Different thought, different feeling. You are your thought. if you want to be happy, just think of something hopeful like your plan to go to Thailand with your family. Your plan to save money to reach 10000 dollar a year, your plan to stop drinking beer and make your feel everything, the hope that you will increase more of your awareness by reading more book, your hope to see your country going better and seeing many people are fighting to get back their freedom. These all hope are the positive thought that could lift your life up and happy to see the better future. Another kind of positive thought is reviewing your pass achievements. Remember the time you are born fighting with other millions of sperm to get where you are today, know how to walk, know how to speak, get into school, college, high school, passing grade 12, getting scholarship to IFl, kosomak and Malaysia, getting a descent job, having a great wife, having a great family, travelling a lot with them. Another positive thought is gratitude. Thanks to your family who brought you up, thanks to your secret angel who has following since you are born, thanks to you sibling who give you love, thanks to your teacher who give you knowledge, thanks to your neighbour who gave you fun experice, thanks to your friend in school who bring your joy, thanks to lok yeay mao who help us along the way, thanks to buddha who has kept his script, thanks to Jesus who brought me up again, thanks to writers such as Staple, Anothy, Jim Ronh, and other great writer who gave me great ideas. Being grateful is another positive thought. What else is a posivite thought? Postive faithe. Believe that your life will be better, that you are here cuase of getting a ticket to play here and just to test you how you react to your life while god and other angels are watching you. Love is a postive thought as well. Feeling love towards your wife, your parents, your family, your friends, your siblings, your colleague, your acquaintances, your work, your health, your game, your motobike, your car, your everything.. love everything, it is a positive thought as well. Let me summarize so far the positive thought that i have are : Hopeful, reviwing pass achiement, gratitude, faith and love. So this is the root to living a positive life and that is what i should be aiming for all the time.

The same goes to negative thought, both thought have the opposite effect to one another. If you indulge in positive, i will be positive, if i indulge in negative, i will be negative, so it is me to consider which one to indulge in. Choose it wisely. It is okey to be sad sometimes, but don't do it deliberately. When you know that you indulge in the negative thought try to think about solution and put yourself back on track to where you want to go again. 

Reflection-Fishing the squrart

How do you feel about it? i feel nothing about it. It is somebody's job vs somebody's life. It is fun Vs life and you still feel nothing about it? What do i suppose to feel? Should i feel sad about the squish that has been hunted and killed? What if the squish is you? What do you think now? It is a life, so there should be something about it. There is nothing change if i feel sorry about the squish. you want me to stop eating it or what? if i feel sorry about it, that is what i should feel. No, what i mean is that i should be aware that it is other people's life, but there is nothing i can do about it beside feeling sorry and it is not to live up to the fullness. See, i don't know how it feels for the squish to be dead, maybe it is getting better, and it is living a better life after it is dead, i don't know. Why don't i think positive and believe according to the Juses that these animal are here for you to enjoy with, some for eat, some for be afraid of to make me all the feeling that i have right now. Think this way is much better since we are here already. We can't do anything unless the animal learn how to talk to us to tell that we should stop killing them. But death is not bad. It is a process of generating new generation. Imagine that your grandma is still here and your mum still have to look after her, while actually, your grandma now reborn to be your mothers'granddaughter, isn't it amazing. So don't think about death as a bad thing. The squish is getting better with its life now. It can live a better life now. Who knows it is going to be born as water. 

Reflection-Bigo Live

Bigo live is a new trend. It is not as powerful as facebook, but it will come into the positive way. Here are the positive way about Bigo live. With it, you can promote on what you do such as as a real estate, you can go live in the house that you want to sell. People will be interested in your promoting yourself live. But when should you do it? and how to do it effectively is your way. Now you have the chance to show people more than what happen in the last decade. In the last decade, you have to pay for the TV for you to show them your product, but now if you can make yourself popular through it you can find a way to earn money very fast unexpectedly. Maybe, you should focus on your ability now and later when you feel that you need to advertise yourself, plan and do something unexpectedly. In a bad way, people may live killing each others, or showing porn. These could lead to negative feeling to audience. 

Effect of porn on our brain

1. Porn triggers mirror neurons in our brain which left the image from the screen. This will cause us to enjoy with the picture in our brain rather than our wife or the real person. So if you are addicted to porn, you will be not addicted to your wife or the real person anymore because that mirror neurons keep showing the pictures in the porn. 2. Porn trigger dopamine chemical into the brain. Dopamine a chemical that make us feel reward-driven learning.  Some addicted drug such as cocaine trigger dopamine as well. Porn surge dopamine more than actual partner sex, so that is why those who enjoy porn, do not enjoy real life sex as much. 3. Neurological mechanism called Coolidge Effect which cause male or female to have interest in different sex partner. This is the cause of the internet porn addiction as well. 4. Overstimulate the reward circuitry which could numb our brain causing us feel less pleasure to rewards, search for more harder or longer porn. 5. If porn is more accessed to, we will make decision more base on it. 6. Reason to porn addiction are due to extreme novelty, no limitation consumption, increase partner, teen's brain is at peak. 7. Porn could cause social anxiety, depression, low motivation, erectile dysfunction, concentration problem, and negative self-perception. In conclusion, porn create mirror neurons, dopamine, nuerological mechanisem, over stimulated the dopamine which cuase male make decision base on sexual anxiety, and cause other harm physical body that it should be considered to stop indulging in it anymore. It is like a drug. It is very addictive, it should be touched or considered to touch. 

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I am back to my high state again. Thank myself for finding a way to get back to where i am.